Hey everyone, 
I haven't updated since...since....well, prolly the middle of February or March....anyway, here I am...yes, I still love LJ.  And no Facebook has not taken over my life, altho appearance might tell you something different:P
Anyway, I'm finished school and did not get that bad of marks....all in the 80s....so I am happy...kinda...however, I feel ashamed knowing that it took me a whole year to get an average mark on 3 credits....that is pathetic.  I seriously lack motivation.  Also, it seems that all around me people are moving on with their lives and have a definite goal in mind....whereas I am just floating and am going to finish high school half a year late.  Strangely enough, I feel kind of ashamed about that...I guess because of my homeschooling pride - you know, how homeschoolers mostly are ahead in their school etc...well, that is NOT me:P
So, I got up at like 5.30 this morning and went to prayer time from 7-8 at our church...not surprisingly, I did not enjoy it,,,is that good grammar?  For some reason, I feel awkward in corporate prayer...kind of inadequate...unless it is prayer after the Sunday nite service.  Maybe it is because I am used to praying corporately only when Pastor Couper is leading worship...anyway, it just felt wierd.  I prefer praying privately, on my lonesome....
I wish it would rain...
And I am seriously bored....I hate working, but when I am not working, I have nothing to do but sit around like a bum....
Tomorrow's payday; that's something to look forward to.  And then Friday I have my first piano lesson in ages...I'll be resuming my lessons in Grade 8.  I'm kind of nervous cuz I fear that I might be underqualified for grade 8.
Also, I have an observation/question to make/ask.  Anyone who knows me well knows that I depend on others, on those around me for affirmation a lot.  I wonder if the people I work or hang with ever get annoyed with me always needing encouragement and affirmation...I should definitely work toward autonomy and independence.
Well, I guess I am going to go now...I have so much more to say, but I will save it for another time....I don't know if anyone will be reading this besides me anyway:P

Hi Nan and Marcia,
      I feel so bad about not updating because here I am saying I am going to stick with LJ and then I update like once a week....what is that?  I must hold the fort!  Anyway, enough militancy.  I really don't have anything to say other than that I am excited and honored to be asked to play for Choir in the Finale, however, I am kind of nervous because WHAT IF I MAKE A MISTAKE!!!!!!  The entire choir could screw up!!!!!  Oh well, I am sure if I practice enough with the choir, all will be well.
Have to go now, talk later...Thanks for reading if you do...Love you girls!  MWAH!!!

You know what's wierd?  I read this pretty good Christianish fiction book.  No, that's not what's wierd.  The wierd thing is the main character of the book was a girl who kept up an Internet blog.  Except her blog was more abstract...she never talked literally about stuff, she would just allude to it vaguely and then talk about her feelings for her workmate.  I definitely do not have an abstract blog; nope, far too lazy to try to be figurative.
So today, I went to minister at a nursing home with an old couple, the Danbys.  I do this every Thursday morning, playing piano for two services there, one in the nursing home side, one in the retirement home side.  So the Danbys knew I did not have a watch because I was late last week.  So they bought me a watch, letting me pick one of two they had purchased.  Then they brought me to Sears to get it fitted and return the watch I did not want.  Awww, they are SO sweet to me.  They tell me I am quite a professional piano player, and thank me a lot, meanwhile, I feel that I should be the one thanking them for all the trouble they go to.  I feel so undeserving, you know what I mean?  I know I don't put my heart into playing, and I only prepare the service schedule the day before.  I do hardly anything, and yet they bless me.  It makes me want to be better, in some ways.  It's funny (in a sad way) that how people see you and treat you can sometimes be such a huge gap from the way you know yourself to be and how you think you should be treated.  

I really want to thank God for bringing two such wonderful people into my life; they are truly a blessing and an encouragement.

Talk more later, school now.

You know what I really, really want to do right now....go shopping...and buy a lot of nice clothes for cheap prices.  It's been a while since I was last shopping, I mean REALLY shopping.  Makes me sad.  Wal-mart is calling my name, or as Marcia would say, "The mother ship of Wal-mart is calling me home!"  Sigh.
Math is really confusing right now.  I am doing spreadsheets...every time I think I have it all figured out, something goes wrong and then I need Joshua's help.  And English is going nowhere without the help of Christina.  The only thing I can really do right now is Parenting..yay.  It's really brainless but actually I am getting my lowest mark in Parenting...wierd.  And my highest mark in English...which I have to work at like a slave to get any good results.  Bleh.  Maybe my English teacher likes my ideas...which aren't actually my ideas but the brilliant ideas of my older sister Christina, the English major.  However, I have been receiving congratulatory notes from my English and Math teachers telling me that they really like my work, so I am very, very, very, very happy.  I need that encouragement.  I have a feeling I've blogged about all this before.  Oh, well, does anyone read these anyway?  Only a few survive on LJ; Myspace and LJ are deserts now, uninhabited, abandoned as a wave of cyberpeople surfed over to Facebook.

Hmmm.  I don't know why I am writing this note.  Life goes on as usual; I am still studying King Lear in English.  In Math, I am studying formulas to figure out mortgage payments (can you tell I'm taking college level?) and in Parenting I am learning about how children are taught social "do's" and "don'ts".
Also, I am kinda bummed by the fact that my family is not going to Bible Study tonite.  I actually enjoyed Bible Study moderately last week; though it is kinda annoying how people will swing off topic and digress into random stuff.  It gets so frustrating for me because the sidetrack topic seems so pointless where as the person who is the leader of the digression is enamored with his digressive topic.  Do you understand what I mean?  And Pastor Clarke is far too nice to cut someone short, so it takes him a while sometimes to gently nudge us back to the topic.  If his nudging efforts are unsuccessful, then he'll be like "Back to our topic..."  and everyone hopefully quiets down.  Arghhh.
I wanted to make chicken katchetori for supper; it is the most delicious thing ever...chicken cooked in tomato sauce, ladled over noodles.  There's nothing quite like it!  Unfortunately I believe we are all out of chicken.  Sigh.
I have to go do some character sketches for King Lear.  I'lll talk again later this week. See ya'll later my LJer friends.

~Susu~